New Soul

I've barely shared this whole month. I found a song that motivated me to share more. Here is the YouTube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-YUxbDEPFiM

HERE ARE THE LYRICS~I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take. But since I came here felt the joy and the fear finding myself making every possible mistake la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la... I'm a young soul in this very strange world hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake. But why all this hate? Try to communicate finding trust and love is not always easy to make. la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la... This is a happy end cause' you don't understand everything you have done why's everything so wrong this is a happy end come and give me your hand I'll take your far away. [Refrain]: I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take but since I came here felt the joy and the fear finding myself making every possible mistake la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la... la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la....

This song says it all for me. It is hard to find my way sometimes.....learning to give and take, making mistakes, learning to trust and love, learning what is true and fake....AWESOME SONG!!!

I don't know how much people really think about their lives, but I do a lot of thinking. This past month has been about changes, about letting go, and about pulling every bit of good out of each day.

We sold our house and bought a new one. All of it is very exciting- and also stressful. We will be moving the end of May.

For the first time, I may also be sending one or both of my children to school. It is a thought that I wrestle with. What is best for THEM. Not for ME, but THEM.

In the midst of moving and my children going off to school, I would also be going back to work. What else, you may ask???? I don't know. I know I can't handle much more than that. Major life changes.

One thing I DO know is that I can change and have the ability to adapt greatly. This is always underestimated and almost never apprecited by others, but it is a gift that I thank God for. It has saved my marriage and my own sanity.

I find each day a balancing act- a balance of past emotions, hurts, pain, memories..and a balance of hope, good thoughts, and things that are lovely.....
It is my goal to keep the balance of good and positive greater than all the rest. Is this just accomplished naturally in people who are more optimistic? Maybe. I do know it is a daily battle of the mind for me. I don't think of this being due to innate negativity...I want to view it as being characterisitc of the thoughtful and serious. Maybe it is my own spin.