Friday, February 29, 2008

For sale

I am completely distracted. We have made the decision to put our house up for sale. Our house is about 30 years old. It is the time when everything is falling apart and needing to be replaced. I am getting estimates on basic repairs, sorting, cleaning and organizing. It is hard work, but I feel so good about the end result.

I love efficiency. I love things to be neat and orderly. I don't go overboard (by whose standard??I don't know...)- I keep the chaos away just enough to be normal and not compulsive!

One show that our family has been watching is Monk. My Martha, especially, is hooked on it. It is a mystery/crime solving show with a few funny quirks. While no one has all of Monk's quirks there is probably at least one of his habits that you can relate to.

I don't know how this happened, but Martha has "thing" about touching dirt or dirty things. She would rather wear gloves or not touch those things at all. I realized this recently. I have no problem touching anything dirty...I cleaned dirty diapers for heaven's sake..why would I freak over anything else? Well, she does. She has been completely uncomfortable cleaning after her rabbit and after our dog. She does not like to even handle dirty garbage sacks. I'm not writing this to make fun of her. It is just an interesting quirk in our family and I enjoy our differences.

Do you have any weird quirks in your family?

Poor Buddy has been sick these past couple of days. He has been more tired with a stuffed up head and sore throat. It hasn't been enough to really lay him flat, but he is just not as peppy. We have been spared a lot of illness over the past few months. (compared to many of our friends) I hope it continues!

Back to the grindstone!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Two weeks?

I can't believe it has been almost two weeks since I last wrote. Ugh! I can't keep anything going it seems.

What has happened? Hmmmmm??

We are seriously considering buying a townhome. It is decision time and I feel a little confused. I can think of pros and cons to the whole deal and have confusing emotions to add to it all. It is a beautiful new townhome...laminate flooring with Maple cupboards and trim...lovely rooms and views. It is all very nice. What could be a con? Well, Buddy would be moving from friends. I like these friends and have come to trust their families, so it makes it really tough. I also will be the one to do almost all the work to make this move happen...it makes me pause. Am I ready for all that?

Considering this move is just the beginning. We are also considering putting the kids in school next fall, and if that happens I will also probably go back to work. So...moving, school, work...none of it will be easy on me. I know that for sure. All of it would take place within about a 6 month time frame, too. Ugh!

I am just sharing some of the surface issues...life has been more complex than even all that.

What has been going well lately? Buddy and Martha have almost completed their Basketball course. They have been learning a lot and are having fun. They are also doing well in their studies. I couldn't ask for better students!!!

Buddy is in a Nerf craze. He has been shooting his Nerf guns all over the house and at everybody. Some of his guns shoot hard enough to leave a mark! Martha has been crocheting up a storm. She is working on a scarf now, but has been making hanger covers, among other things. She carries a basket around that is loaded with yarn, a scissors, and her crochet hooks and knitting needles. I have no idea where she gets all this creative talent- it is not from me!!

We had a scare with Hodge Podge's Friend a couple of weeks ago. He consumed a LARGE amount of chocolate and spent about 24 hours vomitting it all up. It was all dark chocolate. He tore through Dove wrappers to get to it. It was my mistake and a big one. I'm surprised he is alive today.

While I don't like to complain, I have to say this cold winter weather has outworn its welcome. I am ready for it to GO! I became cold to the core just taking out the garbage this morning. It was colder than -10. That is just nuts!!!

What should I do today? I have errands, laundry, some bills sitting around....what sounds good? I hope your day is more exciting than that. :o) It will have to do, I guess.

Blessings!

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Is Tuesday Super?

Are you going to caucus? I am not sure. Steve has a headache and I am worn out after cleaning the entire house for our visit from the realtor.

It could be possible...this house could go through some updating and be sold. We have to decide what we want and what we can handle over the next few months. I know that at the end of everything we would be very, very happy in our new home. It is motivating.

The topic of delayed gratification has been preached on in this house in the past. I have always eaten my vegetables first and my fruit and dessert last. I always do the things I hate first thing and leave the "best for last". Sometimes, if you delay the good things you actually can miss out on them. You can even miss out on happiness- for no good reason. I have been doing a lot of thinking about that. There is a balance, but at some point a person needs to do what may bring good and happiness NOW. Is it wrong to seek happiness in life?

Some would say that happiness can't be achieved, nor should it be sought after. They may also say that this life isn't about happiness, it is about hard work, sacrifice, and giving. There must be a balance somewhere and surely God did not intend for people to suffer exclusively. Those that look at life as all work and no fun must have a hard time coping and must struggle with negativity, no? I mean, I struggle with negativity and it is largely due to the fact that I feel inhibited in choosing happiness for myself. Maybe this sounds all crazy to you. If you knew my background you would understand.

When a background is full of perfectionistic teaching, always striving never enjoying, never time to laugh or relate, never reaching a goal...it forces someone to miss out on life. I think it is a MUST for me to laugh, to enjoy daily blessings, and to feel success. There are pervasive attitudes that prevented those things from being realized in my life (in the past) and I can't let those attitudes or beliefs continue. Somehow each day passed by without my notice of the actual lack of joy and happiness. I just lived and didn't think or didn't realize what was going on. I was clueless- almost like the analogy of the frog in hot water.

These musings are for today. I know I may not agree with my own words in the future. I am reacting to past hurts and past life choices, which usually causes the pendulum to swing a little too far to one side...time will tell. I can't go too wrong by focusing a little more on joy, happiness, and good things.

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Super Bowl Sunday

I am sitting here listening to the Super Bowl action while doing my favorite thing- blogging. I think the Patriots are probably ahead, but I don't know for sure. Buddy is at his own little boy Super Bowl party tonight-complete with sleepover. It will be a great time of snacking, laughing, and rough housing. I am very happy for him.

Daughter is doing what she loves most tonight. She is crafting. She has made all of us crocheted MP3 holders that go around our necks. She has sewed hats, mittens, etc. She is a crafter gone wild. I wish I had one of her crafting genes.

I made Steve homemade chip dip and tacos for the game. I also bought Coke and ice cream sandwiches. He can and will likely spend the whole evening on his butt either in his chair or laying down. It is an evening of laziness.

I am finding sweet time for myself tonight. It is healing to my brain.

Steve and I have wanted to live in a Condo or Townhome for some time. Well, we found a new development that we absolutely love. We are looking into it. It could be a big hassle and at the wrong time, but we are checking it out. This isn't the best time, but this house depresses me often. It is all old and falling apart inside. Everything is from the late 70's. Everywhere I look I see something that needs to be fixed. It wouldn't be easy to move, but after looking at those townhomes, I am motivated. My brain feels overwhelmed just thinking about this. We have a realtor coming on Tuesday just to give us an idea of the improvements we would need to make to sell this house.

I think I will take a bath and let Calgon take me away. I hope you had a good weekend. Blessings.