Is Tuesday Super?

Are you going to caucus? I am not sure. Steve has a headache and I am worn out after cleaning the entire house for our visit from the realtor.

It could be possible...this house could go through some updating and be sold. We have to decide what we want and what we can handle over the next few months. I know that at the end of everything we would be very, very happy in our new home. It is motivating.

The topic of delayed gratification has been preached on in this house in the past. I have always eaten my vegetables first and my fruit and dessert last. I always do the things I hate first thing and leave the "best for last". Sometimes, if you delay the good things you actually can miss out on them. You can even miss out on happiness- for no good reason. I have been doing a lot of thinking about that. There is a balance, but at some point a person needs to do what may bring good and happiness NOW. Is it wrong to seek happiness in life?

Some would say that happiness can't be achieved, nor should it be sought after. They may also say that this life isn't about happiness, it is about hard work, sacrifice, and giving. There must be a balance somewhere and surely God did not intend for people to suffer exclusively. Those that look at life as all work and no fun must have a hard time coping and must struggle with negativity, no? I mean, I struggle with negativity and it is largely due to the fact that I feel inhibited in choosing happiness for myself. Maybe this sounds all crazy to you. If you knew my background you would understand.

When a background is full of perfectionistic teaching, always striving never enjoying, never time to laugh or relate, never reaching a goal...it forces someone to miss out on life. I think it is a MUST for me to laugh, to enjoy daily blessings, and to feel success. There are pervasive attitudes that prevented those things from being realized in my life (in the past) and I can't let those attitudes or beliefs continue. Somehow each day passed by without my notice of the actual lack of joy and happiness. I just lived and didn't think or didn't realize what was going on. I was clueless- almost like the analogy of the frog in hot water.

These musings are for today. I know I may not agree with my own words in the future. I am reacting to past hurts and past life choices, which usually causes the pendulum to swing a little too far to one side...time will tell. I can't go too wrong by focusing a little more on joy, happiness, and good things.