I was just e-mailed the question "Have you abandoned this blog?". I supposed I took a mental break. This blog is meant to be more personal, and sometimes it is hard to be so intimate.
I have been going through a lot of challenges. Hodge Podge (crazy third person..I know) and spouse have been going through a lot. I have been in a personal state of shock. It happens in mid-life, around 15 years of marriage, etc. You figure out if you are really committed and willing to work through the hard times. We are.
I have realized that I am tough but not so tough that I can't become completely overwhelmed. I am learning how to take better care of myself and how to be my own person.
For some people this is easy. I got lost in my husband, somewhere. My world was his world..and I let go of my world. I am in the process of finding myself again. I know that is a cliche, but it just works in this case. It is scary, it is worrisome, but in the long run I hope it is freeing.
I will return to this blog and to sharing again. Thank you for reading. I hope you can relate. If you can-share yourself with me. I'd love it.
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2 comments:
I completely understand. I married for the second time in June '05 and left in March '06. My spouse just couldn't understand that I needed to be "me." We are the absolute best of friends now (divorced in Aug '07) and he entertains my rambling thoughts and I entertain his moodiness, but at the end of the day, I go home and he goes home (hasn't been an "overnight" in over a year). Many of our problems can be attributed to kids (I have one, he has two) and our vastly different approaches to raising them (I am strict, he is not- hence I have a B student, he has D students- which is further not acceptable to me).
Sorry- I probably overshared- but I want to say I applaud you and your husband for staying married for so long. If I have learned anything, it's that marriage is very hard work and each person has to be willing to give more than they take.
Thank you! You DID NOT overshare. I am the strict one, too. So far, parenting has been OK.
I am a little rough around the edges sometimes..I'm learning how to be more sensitive and less self-centered. It's a process.
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